Reasons Anakin turned to the Dark Side









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don't worry kai inn! we are listening.
as for petrol prices, i think it will only go up as crude oil prices were at an all time high recently. and the pm would totally encourage it as we will profit from the raised oil prices. ao now i can only recommend bicycle or as u say there is quite a distance from melaka and muar, i can suggest kereta lembu which is totally environmentally friendly! and the manure can be used as source for generating more energy.

keep my small town ideas in mind.
to others who have any other probs, feel free to consult me. me got plenty of time to think up of solutions since me not going induction.

Thanks for the support, guys. I'm better now. It's true what you all said. All of us go through depressive periods in our lives. Life isn't treating me that bad. It just seemed so at the time.
Anyway, for you guys going for induksi, be prepared for not enough sleep and tiring physical activities. One of my colleagues told me that you only get to sleep late at night, have to wake up early for "senaman pagi", listen to boring lecturers droning on and on, don't have time to wash your clothes (so the break in between is for you to do your laundry) and don't have time to study for the exam.
Will be waiting to hear stories of induksi after this.

final entry before goin to induction.had been a tiring week also.will leave for a famosa resort in melaka soon.n still havent pack up yet.anyway, to the rest of the world: happy holiday!

just settling down in OPD muar and a phone line for internet.
guess lots of things has happened ha.
not many in johor got to go for induksi, so far only yeeling is going for it because BT got no other young MOs. johor is having it in Mersing- of cause just a three stars- Seri Malaysia hotel.
have to travel quite a lot from BT to Muar or from Muar to Melaka. stuck in between! petrol is the most concern issue now. hopefully PM can do something about it.
take care everyone! hope somebody is listening to me?!

to those goin for inductin course: enjoy ur holiday!
to those who dun get to go: there is always next year.so cheer up!

Seow Voon is transferred to OPD Kuala Nerang, a rural hospital 40 minutes' drive away from Hospital Alor Star, despite appeals and 'meetings' with the state pengarah. It worries me that she has to drive daily through single-laned rural roads with lori balak and other heavy vehicles. There, she has to bear with a typical family medicine specialist who emphasises on trivial non-practical stuff like punch card, modest attire, cannot leave before 4.15pm, etika kerja, Allah will acknowledge what you do etc. There is also a Paki contract M.O. who sees patients ten times slower that everyone else and flirts with a gatal anak dara tua nurse. Work is mundane and is not encouraging for self-improvement of medical knowledge/skills.

Meanwhile I am still in the solace of Anesth Dept. Wish I could trade places with her.

Hopefully all these will be just temporary.

Life is full of ups and downs, the day we stop to feel and care is the day we die. Take every setback as a challenge, coming out of it scarred but stronger... emotionally, mentally sometimes physically.

If u need an ear, just vent it out. Sometimes all we need is someone to listen to our grouses. Who knows, some one out here may be able to help.

i'm sorry to hear about your predicament and coming from someone who has always been so cheerful and strong, i must say things must be very bad. but the good thing is when you reach rock bottom, you can only bounce upwards.(except for alan i guess). that is what makes good times feel really good. if it is any consolation, i can say that most of us have been through what u have been through and somehow, we always get over it. all we need is to complaint and whine, and then it all just goes away.and when it does, it only makes us stronger and wiser. all the best and we are all ears if u are in need of a shoulder punch. p/s although we may not have specialised training, keep in mind that we come free!

sounds bad.well, gues tat is part n parcel of life. then again. i charge very low for counseling. after all, medically trained...
well, watever it is, dun worry. gues there is stil a lot of us who is lost for directions....

Hi everyone. Been feeling pretty down lately. Disappointed in a number of things which happened around me. Tired of getting hurt again and again. Lost direction...

Dearest Adeline,

I screwed a guy's ass today.
BMA can be FUN.

Chicos and picos,
Alan

hi people,it's me adeline
how r things? i guess most of u r busy as not much messages in the blog lately. i,m in the middle of my anaest daily tagging. pretty hectic esp on ortho elective days when they hammer n saw even up to midnight. been intubating almost every unfortunate person who has op done in manjung hosp lately. keeping my fingers cross, thank goodness no one lost any teeth yet. left upper limb should be getting more muscular now.
yesterday,i had the golden opportunity to do a spinal (in lateral position) for a guy estimated to be 120kg, with ischiorectal abscess. needless to say, couldnt get into the right space but managed to poke a few holes in the fat i guess. specialist failed too n we had to give GA. it was tough trying to control a big guy like that when he was regaining consiousness.
anyone keen on joining anaesth in manjung? we're going to be really short real soon. 3 senior mo's with up to 10yrs experience will be leaving in 1-2 months time, leaving 3 junior ones with less than 10 months experience. i think my boss in going to cry. boss is nice though.
has anyone done their income tax yet? i'm waiting for my penyata gaji to be sent from teluk intan hosp. dont like this sistem taksiran sendiri. it just lets those tax guys lepak more. shall go to their office n act dumb n ask them to fill it up. hah hah.......

Came back to my regular burger Ramli man after a 1 month hiatus and noted a slender thing with breasts leaning on his broad shoulders feeding him a salad.

She helped to make my burger but didn't know where to apply the mayo.

He had cut off his 5 year old ponytail and was sporting a neat new crew cut.

Wishing lots of happiness to him and his monkey.

Carren: hope u had a good time in Dwakula countwy

Yan Wei: hope the Penan people treated u well

same time havin induction. in fact same time nation wide. exam q also the same.
so far in seremban, me, yee siang n fab also got. not sure bout the rest. goin to a famosa resort in melaka. my boss sign oredi.

When the day is long
And the night
The night is yours alone
When you're sure you've had enough
Of this life
Well hang on.

Don't let yourself go
Cos everybody cries
And everybody hurts
Sometimes.

Sometimes everything is wrong
Now it's time to sing along
When your day is night alone
Hold on, hold on
If you feel like letting go
When you think you've had too much
Of this life
Well hang on.

Cos everybody hurts
Take comfort in your friends
Everybody hurts.

Don't throw your hand
Don't throw your hand
If you feel like you're alone
No, no
You are not alone.

If you're on your own
In this life,
The days and nights are long
When you think you've had too much
Of this life
To hang on.

Well everybody hurts
Sometimes
Everybody cries
And everybody hurts
Sometimes
And everybody hurts
Sometimes
So hold on, hold on
Everybody hurts
You are not alone.

Everybody Hurts by REM

To Bernard

someday we shall die
we are passing to shadow of death every single day
perhap we know death better than god because they are immortal.
moment of death and there after will be forever a mith. not more than just imagination.
getting old and waiting for 'the day' is a terrible thing.
we all share the same destiny. maybe different destination?
but why not that we all stand together facing death with courage and dicnity
and god shall admire us.... our mortal life.... once and for all

sori to hear tat.
gues death is not an ez subject to deal with. makes u think about the value of eternity.
(getting philospophical while loitering at home on a long weekend)
..n as for tis part of the world, i'm just glad no longer doin HO

My grandmother lost her younger brother today. Sat down all day very quiet.

The death of a sibling we grew up with can affect us deeply.

At 85 she is the oldest surviving member among all her brothers and sisters. Perhaps she also feels the crushing weight of her own mortality.

Old age is a terribly thing.

chiew leng... i think u habe blown a fuse

ppl in keningau, before you guys went there, i have never heard of this town. but guess what, it is not so unknown after all, Akademi Fantasia is going there... WOO HOO!

helloooooo.......

tony....guess wat....de road kimanis to beaufort is gonna complete....so it would take shorter time to get to ur place soon...when u going turtle moor...?
at least now we dun have to swim and swing from tree to tree to get to ur place.....

mc....de goal now is not to look back and see all de holidays and no oncalls........we shud all look forward....towards serving the ppl..........at the private side!.....money, money, money......and no, i mean less...calls....politics....and ##$% nonsense

carren....dun stress de next batch of mrcp/ch-ients....i mean, it's very stressfull to know that almost 100% of all our batch who took so far passed ,u know, and that de exam cost $3000 ...and news spread at the frequency of cable tv.....and ......

yo dawg
signing out.....
peace y'all
(seacrest-randy tone)

greetings to all.
congratulations are in order to the following people!
Seow Voon and Lee Kien for breaking into the US market! - meaning we are one step closer to free accomodation when we go on holiday!

People who have made it through the gruesome MRCP (made worse by the fact that all the top scorers decided to raise the standard by sitting for it at one go - the others just had no chance)

People who made it through MRCPCh - I'm not really sure who you are but if you are one of them, congrats! heard it was really tough too this year.

To those who are sitting for exams in May, whatcha waiting, whatcha waiting, whatcha waiting for.... get mugging! all the best!

The moon is so full and bright tonight.

Have... inexplicable... urge... to... wash... toilet...

Take care guys @ gals,waitin to hear from ya all! 

Just for fun! 

Hi buddies! Gong Xi Fa Cai and happy valentines day to all the lovebirds!

Masyitah...

as i recall no hotel around the hospital area. The nearest you could probably get is the Burmah Road area or Macalister Street area.

Well if u're on a course then i suppose transport and lodging is paid for. Then can even consider the beach hotels. :) Actually not that much further only to Hospital from there.

We just received our USMLE Step 2CS results (the one we took in LA) and we have passed. Now for the hard part: applying for a residency program and visa. The intake for non-American graduates like us is low, especially now after Sept 11. We will give it a shot, and will apply for the 2006 intake.

happy valentine everyone!!!!!!!
was extremely happy today cause finally finish medical posting! and keepin myself sane and alive in the end.
now suddenly dunno wat to do....the day seems so bored

hi all, happy valentines day!
guys in pj, gr8t to meetup wit u guys!
seok hong, not heading north..would have love to meet up with u.
wenjih, edit de film properly eh...and if can,reproduce in dvd form.

Dear Carren it looks like a bunny head that has been ironed out onto the road by the wheels of a 10-ton truck.

Post-call just woke up will now go back to sleep. To those I said I'd call today, er, well, sorry guess it's a bit too late now :P

Big day tomorrow. Am washing my toilet.

Cheers and beers.

ok lah, please use a lot of imagination for the picture i did. if u still don't know, it's suppose to be a heart.

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY everybody!
Muah Muah Muah! Hugs and kisses to everyone.


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Happy chinese new year everyone! wishing u a properous year ahead blah blah blah..u know the rest of the greeting so fill in the blanks.

Regretfully, this will be the last day of my leave and i'm on call tomorrow....with several others too. It was great meeting up with everyone. Thank you Liza's mum for the fantastic lunch. Happy happy birthday Ming Chern and Carren. (12th and 21st Feb)
Good luck to Wen Jih in his film recording career if he plans to pursue it.
Alan: sorry we didn't get to see you this CNY. Next month perhaps.
To all those planning to sit for the MRCP middle of this year.. Good Luck. To all those who already took the exam and are waiting for results.. good luck too. Don't try to hide if you have passed, we'll somehow manage to seek you out and demand for a bigger meal so you might as well just admit it and give us a good meal.
For those on call tomorrow - tough luck. we'll probably have to face all the leftover cases from the long break but we'll survive though some of the patients won't.

happy cny everyone, had a fast, tiring cny...sandwiched between active calls, well, just glad tat ending medical.
to those takin exam......jia yiu!
to those not takin exam....dun feel bad, seremban ppl is there to accompany u!

Happy Chinese New Year, everyone! People have become so poetical lately.
Heard the MRCP and MRCPCH exams were tough. Now, now people, you might not want to post in the blog that you're taking exam but when you pass, please spread the good news around, ok?
Spent 2 blissful weeks doing Anaes attachment recently. It's a good life-lah. Used up the time to complete my summaries. (Paeds MO have to do mortality reports and discharge summaries for ventilated or complicated cases.)
Most of you went through 5 postings ya? I missed out on Surgery, so the only appendicectomy I saw was during my Anaes attachment!
So, who's doing what now?
Adeline, which posting is Seng Kiat in? Planning to continue staying in Manjung? How's Chun Wearn finding paeds over there?
Chiew Leng, not coming up to Penang during this CNY? If you are, let me know and maybe we could meet up.
Carren, come pay us a visit in Alor Star some time.
Tony, enjoying the sun and sea at your place?

No in this life
I put my strength
How could I go on?
Not a turning
As life goes on
I laid my bone
Hardened my heart
Will I go on?
Many a time
Much foolishness
Too tired it's been
Let it be my life
Oh! I will not
My mind deepened
Deeper than what I see
Reach out for your life
Make it as it will be
but be Like….
Love
Loving life
Like…
Loving you
More than my life
My ruin life.

Happy CNY

i'm here again! (adeline speaking)
yup, NOT WORKING today.
i'm lazing around n reading newspapers. how's that for progress? really getting "smarter" here.

have not watched BJ diary 2 yet. just watched "the village" on rented original vcd yesterday. There's a place renting original vcd's in sitiawan n it's my current and foremost source of entertainment. Original vcd's available to rent few months after the actual release but if ur really desperate u can rent new but "fan pan" vcds- quality unguaranteed of course.
Gonna watch ladykillers next. Looks stupid but who cares.

btw, i have reactivated my hotmail account which was killed for the umpteenth time due to a very sorry rated of accessing it. In the process, i have lost all u guys e mail add and also msn messenger add. invite me again to ur msn messenger pls? (it's safe, i'm not that cranky, for now anyway).

got to go ppl, its chow time. what a life!

chiew leng: it is a good thing too, i didn't have time to get the siew pau!

gong hei fatt choi all!

m back in in this air-noise polluted pj/kl....people driving as though they are in fear factor episode ...so merciless despite seeing "baby on board" signs on cars driving by...getting a place to park your car is a challenge......BUT I LOVE IT!

carren: have gotten rid of baggage.....muahahahaha.....(evil laugh)

ade: mandarin orange got brand wan meh? hmm....chinese patients very 'ba bai' (cantonese) wan ler......i oso cannot tahan....!!!ade, have u wonder y we r de onli ones being so cranky...?wat's WRONG with the other?!!!!

Brian N:
But, fool that i am,
i forgot to give up
the most addictive thing around-
The HArd Stuff:
Chocolate.........

Happpy new year all....may new year bring lots prosperity to all.....

As soon as i
became aware
of my
addictive personality,
i gave up drugs
(illegal ones),
and i never started
on the legal poisons
like alcohol
or tobacco
or television.

But, fool that i am,
i forgot to give up
the most addictive
thing around-
The HArd Stuff:
Love.

And now it's too late.

I'm hooked for life.

An emotion-mainliner.
A touch-junkie.

A love addict...



happy CNY every1......may love flourish in all of us....

adeline: i understand from over last meeting N/S drip does wonders in your hospital, how about some for that cranky woman!

well, chinese pts may be difficult to work with, but i think chinese female bosses are worse!

to others: happy chinese new year and have a nice long hol to the rest.

adeline here again,
Am on passive call today. Crossing fingers, toes n eyes in fervent hope that i will not be called. Managed to get nice n long leave for CNY. Yay!! That's for being the only chinese in my combined ortho surgical dept n for being the fella who covered raya puasa n haji n christmas, etc. At last, justice.... hmm but for how long? last two weekends calls are all mine. sob.... But 1st things 1st, must get through this call....

Likely to join anaest next month. Will start with daily tagging for at least 2 months, meaning stick around till 9pm each day n if there is any emergency op in the am hours will have to lug it back to hosp in dark a.m. hours. Anyway, hope it is nicer than ortho surg. I get real stressed up with polytrauma cases. On the plus side, once i'm really on call n if we're not too short, then anaest mo's can take day off after call. yay! note of interest, our scavenger system for gas in manjung OT is out of order, so everyone has been being gassed these past few days n been feeling real sleepy in OT. ha ha :p

Chiew leng, welcome back to the western strip of malaysian earth. Here's some information from one cranky person to another: Few days back, some (chinese) guy n his dad was admitted due to alleged assaulted with multiple incised wound n some # n one sucking chest wound. well, 3 out of 4 ortho MO's were there in OT for 9 hours repairing them n fixing # (from 3am to 12pm). yesterday, we wanted to discharge the fella(quite well already) n the gorilla-like wife said that he was still in pain (the man himself wasnt complaining, mind you) n how is his mother gonna take care of him, etc. "kalau u semua paksa dia keluar hari ini, kita mau transfer ke ipoh specialist centre. berapa banyak pun kita boleh bayar". No gratitude plus aggresively accusing us of being inhumane!(which we are, to a certain extent) N since we had done all the necessary, ISC would only need to give painkillers n nursing care (wash his butt, i suppose) n they would be loved to death by the patient's relatives. Sickening. Why not go straight there to ISC in first place? dumbos, cheapos. Loads of people rich in money but poor in manners around here. Makes me shy to be a chinese, u know? Hmmm... this job is bad for my soul. Compassion levels running real low.

hey, anyone can recommend which brand of mandarin oranges are nice n sweet? Havent had time to buy any of that yet till now. want to buy lots n eat like 5 a day to make up for 1 year of low fruit comsumption.

Well, got to go now. Happy CNY ppl. N drive carefully, n dont drive if ur post call, n dont speed ok? Be safe.

Happy Chinese New Year!

Dear friends,

Time to get together with our families and friends, and have a good break from work.


Best wishes from,

Yong and Seow Voon

last call today! yippee....!

chong tien: will heed warning

chiew leng: will take the risk.

coming back this saturday too. maybe can catch up an monday when yanwei comes back.
p/s pls inform if you have succeeded in reducing your luggage (mincing of gct). then i won't tah pau siew pau.

Carren...

true... Keningau got Chiew Leng, real life Bridget Jones. go figure. haha

miss seremban siew pao though.

Warning... cranky CL dangerous, will attempt to slap, choke or gouge your eyes out at little discontentment. Advice to keep distance, if u value life.

This is probably my last post before i am systematically chopped up in pieces or poisoned to death. good bye and take care... heed the warning.

hi all!

adeline, u r not de onli one getting crankier......your level of crankiness cant top mine ...
just to illustrate, since when medical dept takes care of any electrolytes problems, on top of that takes care of necrotising fascitiis because patient has 'lots' of medical problems namely hypertension diabetes and esrd, lemme see, bladder tumor with obtructive nephropathy causing ARF...(like duh), or let;s say....chronic tophaceous gout with monoarticular knee swelling diagnosed septic arthritis from arthrocentesis....list goes on and on.....septicaemia due to obvious foul smelling necrotic ulcer (no known medical illness)...

thank god i m taking long break from all the nonsense here....politickings among expat specialist are getting unbearable....

guys in pj....any meet up? this weekend maybe?......will be back on sat..oh come on, let's meet up so u can see de new cranky$#% me!

well... keningau got chiew leng.

seremban don't have bridget jones or chiew leng.

Grief is a quiet thing.
Deadly in repose.
A raging horror, a thunder of abuse.

Raucous-
Demanding-
Incomprehensible-
Tearing all that one has ever loved.

Hopeless,
Forlorn,
Fear-ridden and misunderstood;
Ceasing a moment, and through the years
Returning... to destroy.

To rage,
To curse all that is happy-
or contented,
or trusting.

To threaten every beauty that is true.

Grief?
It's a quiet thing.

Melba Colgrove

er... Keningau no cinema la. no VCD either, no need to even talk about DVD. cannot get TV3, NTV7 dun even say 8TV. thank god for ASTRO.

Chiew Leng watched it in KK

just came back from teck choon wedding. was rather a quiet weddin, but it was superb to meet up with everyone.

hi all,
adeline here.
oops.... anyone did their taxes yet? i think i'm late already, what with my penyata gaji sitting in teluk intan. they better not tax me more cos of that!!
no yan wei, i'm not enjoying the wonderful n potent mix of ortho-surg. nearly sent a pt to UH by helicopter last week(yup, we have a helipad in manjung woweee :O)

just to compare, anyone getting crankier this days? well, i'm crankier n fiercer now in this s@#$ posting. the other day this teacher (patient) asked me not to include the weekends in his MC (meaning if i meant the MC for 10 days then he would add sat n sun for free n wallop 14 days) I stared at him n he din dare ask anymore. incidently, he got banged up in MVA cos he was drunk n driving at 4am. stupid a#$.

well, as for manjung turning down MO's cos they're full, ????? i dunno. full of untrained fellas then yes. their quota is 4 mo's per posting. example, in GA which i probably be joining in march, 3 senior mo's r leaving at once, leaving new fellas non of which got even 1 yr experience.

hey, has bridget jones reached keningau already? it's nowhere near here in manjung yet. i guess that explains why motorbike racing is real popular here.

so, yee ling is sent to BP hosp. well i heard it's a nice place to work. just that HO needs to send lotsa cases by ambulance. better than getting KK i guess but sometimes the KK scenario is looking more n more inviting to me.

have not encountered pukka yet but was myself bitten by some insect called tonggek last year on my neck. causes cellulitic change with little pustules. very painful. sleep disturbed definintely. treatment (very effective) as suggested by staff nurses = CMC ointment... loads of it.

hey,
i got to go ppl. on call tomorrow (sigh...)
miss u guys
take care n happy CNY in advance!
bye

Spent RM 200 and didn't understand a word which Jay said.

Superb concert, tho'.

Very deep. Must be the erosion.

Excellent stuff.

My life has fallen down
around me before
-lots of times,
for lots of reasons-
usually other people.

And most of the time
I was fortunate enough
to have a large lump of
that life hit me on the
head and render me numb
to the pain and desolation
that followed.
And i survived.
And i live to love again.

But this,
this slow erosion from below
-or within-
it's me falling down around my life
because you're still in that life
-but not really.
And you're out of that life
-but not quite.

Peter McWilliams

A pukka is a special kind of germ, with glossy wings of checkered leaves, and eyes, beautiful eyes, like a frivolous sunset dipped in a silver sauce.

Oh skye, skye, art thou a delectable bumble bee, where words do not matter, and giant peaches roll in the moonlight. Your gaze smites them to the middle spleen, and they fall helpless at your toes.

None may help me.

What can they do, but toss the buttoned slipper up again into the shattered night sky? There are a thousand stars, like a thousand cats' eyes, and they look upon the shifting sand and curse my silent underwear.

Midnight is near. I stand before a yawning pit, and there are pineapples.

Everyday I inch nearer. What holds me back?

Almost nothing, almost nothing.

Did you read in the news about the tsunami-stranded boy who was wearing a Portugal football jersey when he was rescued? Luis Figo and Nuno Gomes is planning to donate money to the boy, and Cristiano Ronaldo is inviting the boy to visit him in England. And the Portugal FA is also planning some charity thing for the boy.

Well, I may be wrong, but the shirt was probably a cheap imitation bought from some pasar malam at his village. The boy probably could not name a single Portuguese national player (ok, maybe he heard Figo).

So Chong Tien, should you be kidnapped by Abu Sayyaf or if some tsunami strikes Sabah, be sure to be in your Man U jersey. You may just win a trip to Old Trafford, business class.

bridget jones 2 was funny - go watch
well, that was my first movie in so many months, so any form of entertainment would have been great.
did i tell u ppl that dvd can go at 3 for $10?

hey, yeeling is going to batu pahat hospital on 1/2/05
i am not sure whether i can get BP also or not.
aiyo, too late to get registered now. ha ha .!
anyway, it will be a short separation only. hopefully
i am trying to get into anaes department.
Here lots of 5 th poster been send to district hospital. everyone is scared to hell where about to go to. No escape !! unless you got your MRCP or equivalent or you got string to pull.

good luck to those taking MRCP! god bless

Lee Kien: yes i am in Sabah... and yes i have a dog, who is a constant joy and amusement coz he is funny looking, scaredy, and a bit dumb. just like the average keningau citizen.

I am spending the weekend in Seremban. Today is supposed to be the Kedah Sultan's birthday and should be public holiday in Kedah. (Sundays are normal working day in Northern states). But the Sultan decided to postpone his birthday with just one week notice to sympathise with the tsunami victims. Almost ruined my weekend plans to come back to Seremban.

Alan: Why Kuantan? For ventilator? Will the ambulance drive through Mentakab and all, or double back to Gemas then east coast? Poor houseman. What's a pukka?

Chong Tien: Are you back in Sabah where the procreation rate is high? You have a dog?

Carren: You're welcome. But still, the original Sarah Brightman can beat the movie-christine(Emma watz-her-name) anytime.

Fab: Where are you la?

A houseman from our department sent a case to Kuantan that day.

God save the pukka

found: phantom of the opera score,
Yong, thanks. will pass it back to you during CNY

You were once my one companion,
you were all that mattered.
You were once a friend and father,
then my world was shattered.

Wishing you were somehow here again,
wishing you were somehow near;
sometimes it seemed if I had just dreamed,
somehow you would be here.

Wishing I could hear your voice again,
knowing that I never would,
dreaming of you won't help me to do all that you dreamed I could.

Passing bells and sculpted angels,
cold and monumental;
seemed for you the wrong companions;
you were warm and gentle.

Too many years fighting back tears,
why can't the past just die?

Wishing you were somehow here again,
knowing we must say goodbye.
Try to forgive,
teach me to live,
give me the strength to try.

No more memories,
no more silent tears,
no more gazing across the wasted years.
Help me say goodbye!


Wishing you were somehow here again by Charles Hart

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you.

The Reason by Hoobastank

Carren... try here http://mrpiano.bestmusicpages.com/film.html

hope it helps

i am planning to go cut my hair soon tony, its getting too long that's its weighing on my head and causing headaches

ya, goin back tis end of the month to attend tc wedding. think yap is comin too.
just another excuse to take leave, another break from work...really began to hate general medicine oredi.

Wen Jih- are you attending teck choon and lee ding's wedding reception in ipoh?I'm on call...actually i'm on call every weekend this month so i can't change with anyone.

Adeline - Ortho + surgical...are you enjoying it? Thought you people have adequate MOs already, why are you still doing 10 calls a month?....being bullied like me?I have some friends who wanted to apply to Manjung but they say it's full.

another year down the drain. changin hair style? seems like hair is falling, gues it is the lack of family diet. ah well.
anyway, just wan to tell everyone tat teck choon n lee ding is getting married end of the month, 29th jan.
counting the days til end of tis stupid posting.

wanted: piano score to Phantom of the opera. if anyone has it, could i borrow it?

well, is it really that bad at penyu island (that is where you are posted right?)
well, my hair has grown a couple of inches since we last met, if you consider that a change.
i have changed shampoo too if you are interested. pantene hair loss prevention. wouldn't recommend it.

to the rest who just sat for their mrcpch (you all know who you all are) best of luck!

adeline: the penyata gaji should be out already, usually it is dated 31/12/04. so check it out.

and feel free to use my add, no prob.

Hi all,
sorry to dissapoint but i'm still here. saved by my frequent calls i guess. was on call on christmas and was in OT on boxing day drinking coffee before going to assist senior MO on a left over appendix case. tot i was swaying cos of water in the sink that i filled full of water (it was stuck) was sloshing n my senior MO tot he was hypoglycaemic cos he was post call too. of course we chucked out of the OT later when brought to our senses by more alert OT nurses, the anaesth MO went deeper into the OT, initially i thought to bring the patient (not under GA yet) out but seems he was trying to book one ventilator for himself first (so he said)

cant imagine my first tots were "heyyyy!!!! it's my day off, don let anything happen that may need me to evacuate etc instead of taking my break.

my colleague in the ward was educated in Indonesian med school so had experience of this kinda thing, she was asking nurses to evacuate patients. turns out some fella with BKA who complained day n night, looking very infirmed was the first one out, rushing in his wheelchair.

i'm in ortho now, doing combined ortho surgical calls (double yucks). cant wait to get out. not into bones n carpentry n definitely not into II suits (gives me muscle ache and resp distress). rate of MVA in manjung quite high, hmm must be the long straight roads, very conducive to racing. our unfortunate lack of HO (bout one per department n none in ortho) means i am still being sent to accompany patient to hosp Ipoh (some things never change)

if ur reading this yan wei, yup i'm still here but rather busy n tired cos i'm still tagging in surgical ortho (yup, 10 calls a month, again) sorry but it's true. chun wearn thinks i'm rather cursed when it comes to frequent calls. how's anaest? r u having fun gassing people up?

anyone received any income tax forms?
r we supposed to get some penyata gaji to fill those forms? i heard we need to pass up the income tax forms by feb but our penyata gaji wont be up till then?? what bad timing

i send n intraab case to taiping the other day (our surgeon on leave). din see anyone there (cheah, ling sze, etc) but wow, taiping is a real LOOOOONNNNNG hospital. i mean the AnE is long, the wards are long...... Hmm i'm not making any sense here. yeah this is my first free weekend in like a month n i'm stuck doing some stupid presentation due on tuesday. well go to go. on call tomorrow

see u guys n take care (ooops sorry, this is adeline abusing carren's address)

Alan... i have no bloody idea. doesn't ur ICU have one, according to our GA all units must have one before ventilators can be used... hmmm

i am careful, that's why i got a dog to protect me.

What is a respiratory technician? Can he come and teach our hyperventilation patients to breathe properly?

Chong Tien... I would be very careful if I were you

Hehe, that is a good one, Carren.

chiew leng... i would be very careful if i were you

errr... by Deningau i presume u mean Keningau.

Actually using Streamyx here, lousy place cannot get JARING, so have to use the faster broadband service. hai... the trouble with rural areas.

the only constants in each rural town of Sabah are KFC and BSN. whole Sabah 2 cinemas, both in KK. DVD in short supply, dark by 6pm, no night entertainment. No wonder procreation rate is so high here.

Craving for Pizza Hut... must go down KK cm for it.

Ciao

next time try calling Keningau

we have free ventilators perpetually sitting in ICU cos our GA refuses to ventilate patient without the presence of a respiratory technician

It has been really hot and dry up north here in Alor Star.

Actually someone up there needs a CBD.

On-call yesterday, spent 5 hours calling 9 hospitals in 4 states for ventilator.

On-call tmr.

Happy New Year wonder wat it'll bring.

it has been raining for the past few days.
it seems that the heaven is crying for those who died in the tsunami tragedy. mass grave all over with hundreds of thousand of body which consist of mainly children.
is this a punishment from above that it struck the poorest spirit on this earth?
is this a result of our own doing? pollution/greenhouse/ocean dumping?
is this truly a 'Natural disaster'?

god does not cry for no reason.....
for those who did not weap, please say a prayer for yourself at the last minute of your 2004, that we do not deserve to live than the victims, but we survive for no reason!

3...2...1...0 happy new year.

reinvited MC

actually he already part of membership

that joker probably forgot his username password.

tony...beaufort is flood prone area eh.....please dun pray too hard for de philli-typhoon...

Invite Ming Chern

Can someone invite Ming Chern to the blog? His email is mcleong@yahoo.com

Ei Fab, where are you la?

Phi Phi Island decimated. The Maldives a sprawling graveyard.

Sigh... time to look for some other holiday destinations, gang

heard you guys in the West could all feel the aftershocks of the quakes.

Penang quite badly hit, who was on call that day? must have been hell.

Amazing what one quake could do, so many lost of lives in India and Sri Lanka, poor things. good thing Singapore was protected by Indonesia, else would have been submerged.

Actually, good thing for Sumatera, in between, otherwise damage and loss of lives in Malaysia would have been much heavier.

No news yet of Adeline...

hi, everybody.. it's me fr Sg Petani....
been quite awhile since my last blog, glad to hear everybody up and running,esp after the tsunami.
i'm now officially MO in ENT, but still din know much bout the running of the dept though..hehe.. ENT here quite free, most of the time the afternoon will b quite free,waiting to punch card and go home, that is if there's no emergency.. Guan Fook relishing his job as MO in eye too..but now he's to busy sunbathing in Sentosa,Singapore....hope the tsunami din affect him though..
Good luck and all the best to u all taking exams in Jan...i know u all can make it..

too bad this year end with so many people losing their lifes and homes.....wishing for a better,safer,prettier year ahead.....may the GOD bless all...
HAPPY NEW YEAR...

Heard Manjung got hit by a few waves.

We know Chun Wearn was in PJ at that time.

But where wuz Adeline? Wuz she sitting on the beach with her bikini on? Please contact us as soon as you can. We hope you're safe.

Anyone with news of Adeline please update us ok :(

The damage is incredible. My skin is tingling.

The earthquake's after effects came without warning. Witnesses said sea waters at first retreated far out into the ocean, only to return at a vicious pace. Some regions reported a crashing wall of water 20 feet high.

"The water went back, back, back, so far away, and everyone wondered what it was. Then we saw the wave come, and we ran," said Katri Seppanen, who was in Thailand, on Phuket island's popular Patong beach.

Yahoo! News

Tsunami!

"She felt like the table rocking while sitting at her desk in A&E Alor Star. It was 9 am local time on Dec 27, 2004. Seow Voon quickly assume it must be the colleague sitting at the other end of the desk who was tapping her feet on the table. The colleague felt the rocking too. They stared at each other, their eyes saying 'hey, did you feel that?'. As soon as they began to realise that the whole floor is actually rocking, it ceased as abruptly as it commenced. She quickly dismissed the incident as she resumed her work."

That was Seow Voon's experience. I was in the OT which is on the first floor, busy with work, and did not notice anything. But the OT sister who was sitting at her desk (who has nothing much to do) felt some vibration, but nobody gave any attention to it.

How is it like in GH Penang/Ipoh? I read at the newspaper that Selayang hosp evacuated their wards.

Good thing we were protected by Sumatra.

The funny thing is that we can get more reports and visual footage from foreign news network like CNN and CNBC on thing happening in our own country compared to our own local news network.


P/S It must look like I am so free, can write on the blog so frequently.

Hi all!

Happy new year..year 2005...just 15 years away from our Vision 2020...cant you just remember those times where we have to 'study-and -pretend-to care' about Wawasan 2020 for SPM karangan and all....that was nearly 8 years ago guys!!!

Unable to watch Phantom of the Op...no CINEMA here!!!!
Time to visit my fav 3 for $10 dvd shop coming chinese new year...

To those taking mrcp/ch...yes...dun deny (there is a whole LOT of you out there)....GOOD LUCK!

As for de rest non-mrcp/ch- cluster /anomaly...join de club! time to make new year resolutions guys! mine is to quit making them (resolutions)

Ciao!

Merry Christmas everyone.

We went to Gurney Plaza, Penang (there is no decent cinema in ALor Star!) to watch Phantom of the Opera, and I find that it is a good adaptation of the original theater production. Musically, it stayed faithful to the original score, with some minor cut and paste which worked seamlessly.

Ok, spoilers ahead. You guys who haven't watch the movie, avert your gaze.

Here are some aspects which I liked most about this adaptation:
1. They were right to put the chandelier crash at the end as the climax. In the original production, the chandelier crashed just before intermission. (The chandelier crash is the mechanical hallmark of Phantom of the Opera musical). The chandelier 'rise' at the beginning of the show, giving color to the initially black and white screen, is also good.
2. The Phantom has a more foreboding, gothic and dark character. A movie obviously have more visual means to portray this compared to a theater. His masks look cool too. The aspect that the Phantom was born with facial deformities with history of being treated un-humanely during childhood is a new feature. In theater, the Phantom's origin is not explored, and it is left to the audience's imagination whether he is human or ghost, why is he deformed and why he came to haunt the opera house.
3. Christine's performance in "Think of Me"

Some aspects which I didn't like:
1. Christine's acting. Yeah, the young lady has amazing singing prowess, but her acting skills leave much to be desired. All she did throughout the movie was look dazed or confused.
2. The sword-fight part was another addition in the movie version. The illogical part is that, why did Raoul not capture the Phantom immediately after he defeated him, or at least tie him to a tree or something. Instead, they want to leave him there, and then the very next day, stage a complicated plan to capture the phantom in the opera house, his own domain. Sure, the director wants to make Raoul more macho by putting in a sordfight scene (in the original production, Raoul is a wimp), but at least make it look like Raoul defeated the Phantom, but somehow he manages to escape.
3. Phantom's performance in "Music of the Night". There were parts which he did not articulate well. Maybe I am biased, because I really think no one can beat Michael Crawford's (the original Phantom) rendition; and it is my favorite song of the show.

All in all, they did justice to Sir Andrew Lloyd Weber's musical ingenuity. In the movie, it is clearer who is singing in which context, especially in complex intertwined songs like Prima Donna and Masquerade. In the theater, it is hard to catch who is singing where, when all the performers are on stage. I watched the movie on THX; and yet in the musical theater where the orchestra plays live, the real music is more 'surround' than the THX surround system.

Happy New Year y'all.


Yong

Resist, Seok Hong, dear. You know how much fun evil hunchbacked hermits like me have.

Hi everyone. Just to update on what's been happening in Alor Star. We now have a new housemate since Guan Fook left for Sg Petani to do ophthalmology. Our new housemate also joined as Paeds MO. So all three of us in the house doing Paeds. Everyday come back at 7 pm but the good news is 5 calls a month and weekends off. Mong Tieng has also just started tagging as MO. My married colleagues encouraging me to play the social scene so that I can 'find somebody'. Anyway, just want to wish all those taking exam in January best of luck.

Great trip. No worries Lee Kien, you'll be back there before you know it.

Congratulations Aida. Come a long way since the time we sat in that smelly corner in Makmal Pelbagai Ilmu.
Sorry won't be able to attend your wedding. My parents got married on Christmas Day too. My family has this bundle of fun anniversary cum Christmas celebration each year. Presents and pies abound.

All I want to do this season is cut my wrist, and watch all the red stuff run down the sink.

Fairies and cupcakes to everyone.

welcome back Yong and SV, glad you all had a great time in US. maybe the next time you come back to seremban you can bring pictures, u did bring camera there right? anyway, i still owe you MT's remote control and a book.

call me when you get back.

this is becoming a messaging system! ha ha

We are back in Malaysia.

Hi everyone,

We just touched down at KLIA at 1pm today. We had a great time in California and Vegas.

We went to LA downtown, Chinatown LA and Hollywood on our first day. We went to the place with celebrity's hand print, and the 'Hollywood on the hill' sign. The Aviator was having it's premiere at a hall while we were there. We also watched Les Miserables at a theater in Hollywood. We got fantastic last minute front seats. It was my second watching this play. (Oh by the way, I can't wait to watch the movie version of Phantom.)

On day 2, we went to Santa Monica beach. There weren't any surfers because of winter, but there were skating, volleyball etc going on. Because Christmas is round the corner, there was a lot of sales going on. Levi's jeans are cheap in the States. A 501 costs about RM120. Other Levi's jeans costs RM80-150. Shoes like Nike, Converse, Skecher are cheaper too.

We spent day 3 studying and psyching up for the exam. We had our exam on day 4. The exam turned out to be less 'academic' than we thought. It actually focused more on communication skills, and all the PPD and DPHS stuff from med school. It will be about 2 months before the results will be out.

Day 5 was a fun-filled day at Universal Studios, where we had a go on all those rides e.g. Terminator 2, Back to the Future; and had a peek on movie production stuff.

We had a 3-day/2-night in Vegas. There were many hotel/casino with themes such as Paris, Aladdin, Excalibur, Luxor, Caesar's Palace, New York. Our Sunway pyramid may have been a ciplak of Luxor, a pyramid-styled hotel/casino.

Then we had two 'magical' days at Disneyland. That place really must be heaven for kids. It really kind of like lights up the child in you. That is amazing because after all the crap we get from work as HO/MO, I am surprised that I still have that little warm fuzzy innocent corner in my heart. We had a go on the rollercoaster stuffs, which were fun. We also watched stage musical version of Snow White and Aladdin there.

The expenses in the States is actually not expensive for their local people who earn US dollars. Well, for us, everything is 3.83 times more expensive. Their cars are really cheap. A brand new Honda Civic costs less than RM80,000. For the local people, that is less than US$30K. And the high school teachers in States earn about US$3000 a month.

The weather wasn't too bad when we were there, about 9-18 degrees Celcius. Most of the days were sunny with clear skies. But it gets dark at 5pm during winter. No snow in LA.

Now the fun is over, and it is time to go back to daily work.